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Indeed, been thinking about a lot lately about many things.
But somehow i just figured out that, maybe really whatever i was thinking of, all the problems or situations arising comes from within me.
I need to get over myself, get over from over thinking too much.
Over thinking kills.
It's real bad.
It makes me think of the worst thing that could ever happen or what i imagine e situation could be and then i'll start crying buckets of tears.
I hate what over thinking does to me.
So yes, i'm gonna stop it.
I'M GONNA CONQUER IT.
;)

1st Situation: I keep thinking that this good friend of mine is unhappy with me.
Not exactly unhappy, but just that her msges doesn't seem like e usual her.
And idk why, i just get that feeling something's wrong and we're not that close anymore.
:( 
It just makes me sad because i guess, she reacted like this because of my retarded behaviour apparently. >> MY FAULT. YES. OMG. WANNA SO UNDO IT.
Really hope everything's alright in fact.
I think it just lies with me, if i just be myself and just be happy on all our usual outings, perhaps we'll go back to those normal texting? 
Somehow, i think i might be little too sensitive.
But i just feel that something's different.
That feeling, makes me feel so uncomfortable.

Solution: Hope to reconcile with her by confronting her face to face. :)
I just need to know if i'm been thinking too much.
I mean, and of course be my usual self again and be happy.
i guess one most important fact is, when you're happy, your friends will be happy too.


2nd Situation: Recently, i felt that things are changing and that he is changing as well.
Initially i thought i was just pure jealous because he's going ice-skating with his friends, but the fact that it reminded me of how long we didn't go for dates just made me felt a surge of sadness whelmed up inside of me.
i know that since entering poly, lately, we've rarely been out alone, just the two of us going on dates. Like literally, real dates. Which i mentioned on my previous post. i craved   rollarblading, cycling, playing pool and going out. 
The part that made my heart break was the fact that he doesn't initiate to go on dates or whatsoever and i was always the one asking him for meet-ups.
At that point, i kept thinking of it so bad that yeah, over-thinking occurred.
i just lie in my bed and cried. 
But like what this quote says, its the familiarity that i missed. i missed how we go out the entire day, playing games/activities and end up holding hands walking back home tgt. 

Solution: So i somehow gathered the courage within me and told him about what i was feeling one day when we're just hanging out.
And yes, i found out the reason why he didn't ask me out.
i was always busy, having meet up with my friends that even when we go out alone tgt, it would be just a half day spent tgt.
Which, when i thought about it, it was so true.
i mean, i'm still trying to balance things out so that i'll be able to attend most gatherings.
But yeah, you're bound to disappoint someone at some point in time.
i guess i need to set my priorities right?

1. Family♥
2. Him♥
3. Friends♥
:)

Yes, thats it.
This shall be it.
Hopefully, we'll be meeting on friday for a real date yay! 
I'M SOOOO LOOKING FORWARD. ;)
Heheheheh.


So yes, this quote.
i gotta create a happy me. 
A "me" that is gonna start treasuring my kinship, relationships and friendships. 
A "me" that is gonna treasure the time spent with my loved ones.
:D

Just wanna end off with this special quote, 



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