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Hello July

Wow its been half a year, honestly was little surprised that my last post was in Jan. Heh so i guess im back here to update how my life has been so far.

Today -  8 Jul was a really happy day because our dear jiaen (aka my jenny) is married!! Hehe was so happi to see her in her white wedding gowns and beaming with a smile all the way. its like everyone just grew up so quickly and now me is seeing my friends get married one by one over the years :') I still recalled the days whereby jiaen wasn't having the best time with love back in our student days and fast forward today, she is happily married to the man of her life! Always makes my heart at ease seeing my close friends being so happy in their life. And funny how I always get so emotional at wedding speeches, I honestly suck at that. Hahaha even buddy could predict that i'll need some tissue cuz i'll probably be tearing away, which i did afterall heh. Thought this day the four of us could reunite - i guess we will wait till 23 Sep! Still holding on to that bit of faith that our clique will be able to meet up again as a whole after our weddings, gonna keep that last bit of hope there heh. 

So after the wedding, we met up with Vanessa and Sharene! finally the four of us as well - spending some quality time together! Sang K @ K Star Orchard Central > Dinner @ BIAP :P Been ages since we last met up cuz before that, everyone was caught up in schedules and we were all busy, so today was the perfect time that we can all meet up and catch up. 

Grateful for such friendships that when we grow older, you have friends who still take the initiatives to plan outings and all. I used to be such of a person and somehow as I grew older, I noticed myself shying away from being the organizer (which was something I felt that I lost in me and it saddens me somehow). Not too sure if pure laziness was the reason or I simply grew tired of always being the one to initiate meetups, but yes this was something that came up to my mind lately. I noticed myself being less observant and caring about people, and tbh I disliked myself for that. I disliked this part of me and I really want to change this part of me. Perhaps Adeline it's also time to learn to give others, to give people your love and time. Not everything is about you anymore - you had your fair share of takes from people around you. Time to refocus your mindset and be the caring Adeline you used to be. Be the girl who's been initiating meetups and conversations because you genuinely want to meet up and connect with your friends. This extends to your family members, be patient with them always.

I guess the actions of my loved ones have made me realized how fortunate i am today that i forgot to take everyday to appreciate all these goodness in my life. I took it for granted, expecting that my loved ones ought to give their best for me but what have i done in return? The heart and mind knows it all and I know that I haven't been giving my best. Breathe Adeline, you can do this. It's never too late to tell yourself that you want to make a change and start acting on it. Half a year more to start making changes through our daily actions, and I guess I will have this constant reminder for myself till the end of the year as a growth check for myself. 

Countdown 2 months 14 days to our big day!!! Eggcited for it while trying to mentally remind myself to not get stressed up over the wedding preps, learn to enjoy the process. You have the best husband you ever wanted, Adeline. Just live and let live <3

So much thoughts running through my head right now, its 1.33am and i guess i have to thank the coffee and tea for keeping me awake and allowing me to pen down my thoughts here. I always needed an avenue to share my thoughts and im glad i did it tonight. I know what's in my mind and what i will like to do next, slowly but surely. 

With that, shall go and enjoy the rest of my night and turn in soon before another exciting day tomorrow with baby and his family. Loving to embrace the married life days. 

Goodnight world XO

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