Adeline Quek

Hello! :) Heheheh now finally having e time and mood to blog. Well, i hope everyone's been doing good so far. Hahaha this month's been a pretty tough one and honestly, it's been one of the hardest too. Can't believe i'm deciding to keep that tiny faith in me. Oh just when i spend the past 4 days thinking though a lot and deciding to let you go, your actions made me so hard for me to make my decision. BOO. >:/ Hate this irony feeling when your head tells you to do this, yet your heart still wants you to see how things will turn out and yeah. So i guess i'll be waiting? Waiting for that moment to come. I just hope we'll keep trying? Like i know how feelings can't be forced, but hanging out with you for the past 2 days, it made me think there you know, there could possibly be some of the feelings left and sometimes i really wonder what in e world am i doing right now?! I don't want to fall too deep, because i'm afraid i'll get...

Yeah, i need to keep that faith in myself. But sometimes, it just drives me so insane.

Heheheh i'm back! :))) Its been awhile since i've blogged.  Well, unexpectedly i've the mood to write today and no mood to study.  BOO. That's pretty bad because my exams are in less than 2 days time. Well, i've studied everything already. Though memorizing haven't been done much yet, heh so i guess tmw i gotta mug harder. :) Hmm, today had study date with the usual again. Hahaha i kinda enjoy myself a lot today heheh thanks to them. (Celia & Tk) And of course him. Hehehe so glad that things are better?  Well i can't assume that you know, things will be the same as the past. But yeah, i just keep telling myself to think positive and be who i am, because at the end of the day, whatever happens isn't gonna matter that much because you did your best and were who you were. I believe that he's gonna get back the feeling. :D I can still remember last week, i was still pretty depressed by whatever that happened, kinda though my life was over...

Beyond words i can say, or describe my current feelings and emotions. Feel so overwhelm by everything that i really just wanna break down and cry. I know this is not the end, yet i just don't know why my heart hurts a lot after hearing what you said. Many a times, at the start when we started off together, i kept worrying if you love me enough and it was always you that i thought of. Then halfway, i realised that maybe it was my turn to worry about myself if i do love you enough so i keep focusing on myself even until now. And despite the changes i realised in you lately, i thought maybe you know this is what happens when someone gets into poly and yes, there's definitely bound to be changes. But i would never imagine it would be due to the reason that your feelings for me are fading.  Hearing those words put a sting in my heart and i can't help myself but tear everytime i replay that scene in my head. Like a bulletshot through me.  You asked if we could still be clos...