yesterday night, i had a long walk. i left e bbq halfway, with like nothing on my mind but just wanting to getaway and have some time alone to myself. i guess i was like overwhelmed by my emotions that i couldn't really enjoy e whole bbq. the stressed thingy is getting to my head again and i hated it. i tried controlling my tears from falling but yeah, it still falls. Sometimes, i feel like crying and screaming is the only way out to relieve all my stress. :( WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY?? WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY. THIS SUCKS BIG TIMEEE OKAY! :/ I FEEL SO BAD FOR BEING SUCH AN IDIOT STUDYING AT PPL'S BBQ. BUT WHAT CAN I DO? EVERYTHING IN MY HEAD WAS ABOUT O LEVEL.! ARRRGH. so only leaving the bbq i thought was the best choice i could make.
Learning to love and live life bit by bit everday.