Adeline Quek

Sitting at my desk on Christmas Eve and decided that it's a good time to blog, missed that feeling of alone time to write down my thoughts. Honestly, so much has been going through my mind and I guess this is probably the best avenue for me to pour out my feelings and thoughts.  24 Dec 2020 - Feeling one of the lowest in my spirits and state of mind. I feel awful on the inside, honestly. I'm not too sure if it's really about because of work or perhaps for me afraid to be my true self in front of others. Felt like I was drowning in work and while still trying to stay afloat, caring so much about how others thought of me and how else I can contribute and be of value. Feeling like I gave my ugly self to the ones who loved me the most. I really hate the "me" right now. Where did that once cheerful, bubbly and positive Adeline went to? Constant thoughts of giving up in my mind, and for a person who dislike to give up halfway, I really am starting to wonder why all thes...

Yes feeling those feels to finally sit down and write another post, after like 3 months heh.  You can say that much has happened definitely since my last post, so much has changed within that span of months - and never will I thought that 2020 will be a year like this.  I guess this entire Covid-19 situation and circuit breaker thingy has affected everyone so much that as much i just can't wait to go back to the "new normal life after circuit breaker", but I definitely do appreciate the days working from home as well. It just made you have a different perception of work and life and the things that matter to you the most. Thinking back, it wasn't an easy past two months of work from home and i remembered breaking down several times cuz of the stress and overwhelming emotions built up from wanting to do my best at work (and not screwed up) while trying to prove that i deserve this job as well. It's indeed tough, tough for all out there doing your best to continu...

March 2020 is coming to an end and it sure felt like time flew by so quickly for the first quarter of the year. I guess you can say it wasn't a good start to the year, given the current situation we are all in. I bet we all didn't see it coming and thinking back, there were so many things happening that you often think to yourself, well this event happened and you're probably not going to be affected by it. But then when i take a look at it, i realized it sure is affecting us, our lifestyles and the people around us. I think the seriousness of it didn't sink in until lately, when the government tightened the restrictions and all and you start to see and feel the impact on you. Sigh, wasn't expecting this year to start off on such a note and of course, the world definitely wasn't expecting this at all. It's like how we are all on the same page, irregardless of who you are as a person, your social or financial status. Covid-19 affects everyone, the virus attac...