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It's feels great to be blogging at such a timing, never been doing this for quite some time. (:
I realised i've been going through a lot, emotionally.
Many things have been on my mind and it bothered me a lot.
Just like yesterday, i've been thinking, thinking and thinking.
Thinking of almost everything about you, esp your flaws.
Until it almost made me made a rash decision.
Thankfully, there was my very good friend there to talk it out with. She told me to think really carefully before making any decisions and i did that.
Today, i'm here with a decision. 
I'm here with a decision that i should look beyond your flaws, and love you for you are.
:)
Sometimes i feel that our characters clash at times.
Like how i think you should have think on my perspective at times and show a bit more care to me.
Like how you should stop thinking i am angry when i'm not, because i'm feeling something else.
Like how i'm angry because there is always a reason to be angry.
Close friends can see what i'm feeling, but why can't you? ;(
We're always not on the same frequency i guess. 
I hate it how when you'll say we always 'fight' whenever we meet up.
Maybe there's no reason to fight at all, actually.
& I guess i think too much at times, i still know that deep down in my heart, i love you x123456789 infinite.
Whenever i think about all these, it mades me wanna cry whenever i see you. 
It hurts to think so much about you, because i wonder how long is this going to last. 
there's still other problems you'e facing.
Your family side as well, whenever i hear all these problems, i really want to help you in whatever ways i can.
But i have limits.
i tried showing concern but you just don't wannt talk about it and just brushed off the topic whenever i mentioned.
i know its frustrating to think of all the problems but i just hope you'll show more responsibility towards settling these issues.
Don't run away from your problems, face it, i'll face it together with you.
Sometimes, i wish you hadn't such a complicated family background,  because then i'll think that maybe we'll both be much happier. Live life much freely, without any worries.
But, i can't blame it on you. Families are God's gifts to you. You should treasure them. :)
i just hope life'll be better as time goes, i'll keep praying for you and me.
i need strength to continue this relationship and i also need you to keep trying so that i know i did not made the wrong decision.

P:S i'll hope you'll read this someday. 
P:S Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. ;)


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