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It's been two years to be exact since teen games in KCP.
Looking through my archive and finding our photo, memories start flooding back to me. 
Sigh i really missed the good old days, to be honest.
Things feel so different right now, sometimes i think to myself, "Would i've been happier today should things stay the same?"
This question been's in my head occasionally and i know its time to move on and stuff, i really am moving on.
But somehow, a small part of me wanted to reminiscence these happy memories back then, when we were all still so innocent and child-like.
I tell myself to be strong always, that better things will come. But then, what if when the real day comes for me to be strong, i couldn't be. What if i'm just deceiving myself in all these lies that i'm alright and i'm living life as good as can be. What if this is all just a way to hide things down to the bottom of my heart and locked away? What if all these while, i thought you're not that special someone anymore but in fact you were all that person all these while and i was just pretending i've moved on without you.  
Sometimes, i'm just afraid what if i couldn't move on?
I know you can, because you're strong enough to do that. Besides, it was you who gave up on us right? 
Eight more days, but this time, everything's changed. 
My phone's password are still those dates, i couldn't change them idk why.
I couldn't get used without it. :/
They say it takes nine months for one to get over it completely, its been more than six and i honestly have no idea how i'm coping with it.
Maybe you just need someone new with you, and i guess the answer will reveal.
Time will tell yeah? i supposed.


















& i don't think someone can like me for long, 
i guess i kinda screw them up in the long run 
and they just wanna get away from me as far as possible. 
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