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Fifteen may

Hello it's me again. 
Yes it's definitely a day for me to post because as you see the date, 
It's fifteen may. 
Truthfully, things have changed a lot as to last year. 
I can still remember myself getting excited once the clock strike twelve
And then I'll quickly text him happy 2nd anniversary and all and I would 
be so happy and love struck and excited because I get to see him in school
the next day! 
So yeah it feels kind weird because suddenly this day holds no special 
meaning anymore and I'm not used to it. :/ 
For two years, it's been a day I'm always looking forward to and now, 
it's just an ordinary day. 
I just missed those times. I missed us. And most of all, I missed the 'old' you. 
It's getting harder to get you out to meet up and stuff and it's kinda sad to think
about it when we used to be so close. We were definitely more fortunate than the other couples because at least we could still be good friends. And I'm really thankful for that. ;)

So yeah I'm gonna stand up strong and take my own hands and lead the world myself. 
I really gotta get used to being alone. And maybe it's time to change my password too. 
Suddenly it seems so surreal since the last time I could remember our happy moments and the way you used to text me, I guess it's really time that help me moved on. 
I will miss everything but most of all, I will treasure what is left of today and tomorrow and the very next day.  
No more looking back and living in the past, let's do this Adeline. I know you can. 
And sometimes I think to myself, do I regret starting it with you on this very day, I know that deep down in my heart, I don't. 
Thankful for the two years  of happiness, laughters, sadness and anger and jealousy and everything all sort of emotions I could ever experience. #thankful 
Hope you do think of this day when you wake up in e morning and be glad it did happened after all. ;) 



I would rather be happy for a short while then to be 'okay' for the rest of my life. 

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