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Yeah, its finally past midweek!!! ^^
Heheh pretty glad that this week is coming to an end, well am done with tests and one project! YAY. :DDD

And i just don't know why but i just like this sense of calmness in me right now.
Its just at certain times in the night where you just feel so peaceful with everything in your life. Its like damn, i'm in such a good mood right now. 
Hahaha i just love these nights when i'm feeling this way.
It makes me pause and think about all the things that happened in my life so far and i'm really glad with how things are right now. ;)
Though my friends are getting busier and we hardly meet to study every week as supposed, but i know that soon we'll be able to meet.
Sometimes, its just the time factor i guess.
Maybe the time isn't good or the right one for us to meet i don't really know.
But yeah, it just feels good to constantly talk on whatsapp or text or even reading their dayre. Hehehe reading people's mini blogs (Dayre) makes me feel like i'm catching up on their lives and it just feels nice to have people read yours and yeah comment and stuff.
It makes you feel like you're being cared for, you know? :)
And just talked to him today, well i guess it was good?
I'm starting to like the feeling i have for you right now, its like already mutual between the two of us and i'm kinda anticipating better days to come for the both of us.
Though at times when i see couples, i will kinda think back to the times we were still together, the things we do, the places we've been. But i realised that after all these while, it wasn't exactly you i missed, it was all the wonderful memories we had when we were still "we". :')
I'll definitely missed those days, but still thank you for creating them with you. 
And though i guess you may have moved on entirely and even have someone with you, i just hope that it won't change anything between us and our friendship will stay strong! 
It feels surreal to actually feel this way when i know i still can't completely let go, but i'm learning to do so and time really helps a lot.
Esp my friends who were there for me, i love them so much. (L)

For now, i just want to live the life i always wanted.
Live everyday like its the last day and without regrets.
i don't wanna say "what if" anymore, i just want to do the things i always wanted to do.
Because sometimes in life, you have to do it.
If you love somebody, say it.
If you want to grab hold of somebody, do it.
And i didn't regret confessing that night after all, because at the end of the day, it was all worth it. ;-)



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