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Hello! :)
Heheheh finally after a few months am i gonna blog, yea finally back from my 1 month OIP trip! At last, back in my comfort zone, my precious home Singapore.
To be honest, being away for 5 weeks is a pretty huge torture.
Okay, actually it isn't that bad but just that i missed so many things of Sg. The food, the air, the people, practically everything. And it just feel so good to be back home, to where i belong. ^^

 And yeah, for the past month or so, my life wasn't exactly good.
Though it seemed like i had loads of fun in China, deep down in my heart i wasn't.
I was trying to solve an unsolvable problem within me and him.
It was something that i couldn't find myself to deal with and every time i think of it, i'll end up crying. It was a problem that clung onto me for the whole 34 days and it bothered me until even in the midst when i'm sleeping, i dreamed of it. :/ 
I was like drowning myself in sadness because i hate it when i couldn't do anything to solve it, even though i told myself umpteen times to keep trying and not give up, that maybe things will work out. At times, i even though to myself if only i could be in Sg now, what would possibly happen? Will we work it out tgt?
Our talk ended abruptly and we only finished it today.
And today, we officially became best friends. 
(:

 Hahahah never in my life when we both started out, that i thought a day like this would come. Though i do feel a tinge of sadness that we couldn't work out as a couple, but i am really really thankful that we could still be friends and nothing less. This definitely wasn't easy for me because of all the feelings i had to take back. I cried a lot till my eyes hurt but it was worth it. 
I just can't afford to lose you in my life. You just walked into my life unexpectedly, becoming someone so close to me that you are now a part of me, so don't ever walk out on me alright? Because if you do, it's when i will really fall apart.
I'm still standing strong now because i know the end of our relationship doesn't mean the end of the world, or the end of us. It means that a whole new level of friendship is beginning and i'm really looking forward to it!

 They say good things fall apart so better things can come together. Perhaps we could be best friends for life? ;D
Who knows?
So i'm gonna remain positive about things and let all God handle the rest. 
Now, am just gonna let time heal the remaining wounds. 
877 days. 
(L)
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