Cheers to better days and a happier future! :D

Hello! :)
Heheheh now finally having e time and mood to blog.
Well, i hope everyone's been doing good so far. Hahaha this month's been a pretty tough one and honestly, it's been one of the hardest too.
Can't believe i'm deciding to keep that tiny faith in me.
Oh just when i spend the past 4 days thinking though a lot and deciding to let you go, your actions made me so hard for me to make my decision. BOO. >:/
Hate this irony feeling when your head tells you to do this, yet your heart still wants you to see how things will turn out and yeah.
So i guess i'll be waiting? Waiting for that moment to come.
I just hope we'll keep trying? Like i know how feelings can't be forced, but hanging out with you for the past 2 days, it made me think there you know, there could possibly be some of the feelings left and sometimes i really wonder what in e world am i doing right now?!
I don't want to fall too deep, because i'm afraid i'll get hurt really badly. But then again, i wanted to risk it all because i don't want to have any regrets. THIS TOTALLY SUCKS.
Wondering how you're thinking of me if you are, and sometimes i really hope to peek into your mind to see what you're thinking. I really hope you're happy with me and i really hope we'll get back together strong and steady like the past.
We can do it together right?
:)
It's a week to OIP and i'm kinda nervous yet excited. I wonder how things are gonna be when i go over there, looking forward to our living in China for like 5 weeks? Hehehe thankfully my poly mates are coming alonggg. And yes, so gonna shop there like insane since its gonna be so cheap there. Yeepe~! Also, i really hope these 5 weeks will be a good one. :D
And for us too, let's pray hard to a good month ahead yeah?
Really hope everything's gonna be alright.
I know that if the both of us are gonna try to get it back, miracles can happen right?
Nothing is impossible too. i know that. And i tell myself i'm gonna just fall in love madly with you while i still can, i mean at the very least, end it with no regrets. ;)

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