Beyond words i can say, or describe my current feelings and emotions.
Feel so overwhelm by everything that i really just wanna break down and cry.
I know this is not the end, yet i just don't know why my heart hurts a lot after hearing what you said.
Many a times, at the start when we started off together, i kept worrying if you love me enough and it was always you that i thought of. Then halfway, i realised that maybe it was my turn to worry about myself if i do love you enough so i keep focusing on myself even until now.
And despite the changes i realised in you lately, i thought maybe you know this is what happens when someone gets into poly and yes, there's definitely bound to be changes. But i would never imagine it would be due to the reason that your feelings for me are fading.
Hearing those words put a sting in my heart and i can't help myself but tear everytime i replay that scene in my head. Like a bulletshot through me.
You asked if we could still be close friends even after we break up. I said yes and honestly, i thought i could. But i really have no idea how am i gonna do that if it really happens.
I just know that for now, i just gotta keep that tiny faith in me.
I know sometimes things are meant to happen, it will happen. Like how if two people are meant to be, they will be together eventually. But i mean feelings are different, feelings need time to nurture and once its lost, it takes time to get it back and i know you have to try to get it back because it doesn't work its way round like fate does. Feelings can either grow stronger or just fade slowly and eventually die.
I just hate that fading part, why?
Can someone tell me why this is happening right now?
Suddenly, it seems so unreal that the things we went through together wasn't exactly the hearts of 2, but 1.
Just when i could really confirm my feelings for you, to know that i really really like you and i love you.
This happened.
So much to take in and my eyes hurt from all the crying.
Whats this?
Whats all this coming to?
i have no idea.
i have no idea how to text you normally now.
i'm no longer your girl that you loved the most and look forward to seeing every week and the happiest to receive my text.
:'(
What to do, God? i really really have no idea. I just know i don't want us to end like this, i want my future to have you. They say God give you the hardest battle to the strongest people, because he know they can handle it.
Am i that strong enough?
Feel so overwhelm by everything that i really just wanna break down and cry.
I know this is not the end, yet i just don't know why my heart hurts a lot after hearing what you said.
Many a times, at the start when we started off together, i kept worrying if you love me enough and it was always you that i thought of. Then halfway, i realised that maybe it was my turn to worry about myself if i do love you enough so i keep focusing on myself even until now.
And despite the changes i realised in you lately, i thought maybe you know this is what happens when someone gets into poly and yes, there's definitely bound to be changes. But i would never imagine it would be due to the reason that your feelings for me are fading.
Hearing those words put a sting in my heart and i can't help myself but tear everytime i replay that scene in my head. Like a bulletshot through me.
You asked if we could still be close friends even after we break up. I said yes and honestly, i thought i could. But i really have no idea how am i gonna do that if it really happens.
I just know that for now, i just gotta keep that tiny faith in me.
I know sometimes things are meant to happen, it will happen. Like how if two people are meant to be, they will be together eventually. But i mean feelings are different, feelings need time to nurture and once its lost, it takes time to get it back and i know you have to try to get it back because it doesn't work its way round like fate does. Feelings can either grow stronger or just fade slowly and eventually die.
I just hate that fading part, why?
Can someone tell me why this is happening right now?
Suddenly, it seems so unreal that the things we went through together wasn't exactly the hearts of 2, but 1.
Just when i could really confirm my feelings for you, to know that i really really like you and i love you.
This happened.
So much to take in and my eyes hurt from all the crying.
Whats this?
Whats all this coming to?
i have no idea.
i have no idea how to text you normally now.
i'm no longer your girl that you loved the most and look forward to seeing every week and the happiest to receive my text.
:'(
What to do, God? i really really have no idea. I just know i don't want us to end like this, i want my future to have you. They say God give you the hardest battle to the strongest people, because he know they can handle it.
Am i that strong enough?
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