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A time for reflection

Its Tuesday. 
Cold night, was raining from evening till night. 
i liked how the breeze blew, it was so cooling. (:
So yes, had just finished BStats 'consultation' with my sister. It seems like i barely understand the theory or concept, maybe i did? But then i just didn't know how to apply. :/
i really really got to buck up and work extremely hard. Work smart and work hard. No pain, no gain. Seriously, i've been lowering my expectations and this is not gonna bring me anywhere better. Gotta work hard, shall practice BStats everyday till common test for now! 
I MUST DO WELL FOR CT2, CANNOT AFFORD TO LOSE SO MANY MARKS AS BEFORE. 
AIM: >45 ? POSSIBLE?
For that, i'll leave it to that very day. Baby, i can do it!
Nothing is impossible. 
Actions speak louder than works. 
Okay, tomorrow during break time, shall do some Bstats questions. Shall not waste time lepaking. (:
These few days, i've been feeling very tired and lethagic. Its pretty terrible because i have a short attention span and pretty low concentration level. i'll tend to drift off and daydream during tutorials that its making me going insane when i get back home because i'll then realise i got so much to do and so little time! ><
i cannot afford to do this anymore, i need to manage my time well! PROPER TIME MANAGEMENT DUDE. CAN YOU?
Yes. 
:D
& because of this, i'm afraid that i won't have time for my baby!
Now its getting harder and harder to meet up, and every time we meet up, i'll really spend every min every sec with love and care. I wanna study hard and i wanna see him too. It seemed so hard to manage between the two! Studying with him is becoming less productive lately because of recent events, everytime i see him i wanna talk and catch up, but because of time, i had to study instead. i don't like this!!
>;(
& i;m getting so afraid that i'll slowly drift away from him someday. Many things are happening right now. The future is so unpredictable. i just dont wanna lose you. i think i really need to sort things out. Properly.
Life is getting harder. Sometimes, i hate it. 

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