Hello, it's been awhile and i can't believe its already coming to an end of June.
6 months just flew by and its been 3 months since I've started working.
Truthfully speaking, i wouldn't see myself here right now where i am a year ago, or even half a year ago.
I guess its true that a dream job doesn't exist but i'm still trying my best to find passion in what i do.
Being at the front line is tough, in fact way tougher than i thought it will be.
And as much as i truly enjoyed the first 3 months of my attachment, coming back to the place where i choose to grow myself in suddenly seemed so daunting and i'm dreading it day by day.
It's really sad to see myself feeling this way about work because never would i thought that one day, work will just break me down.
I honestly dislike myself for being like this - Negative. 😢
All these negativeness is suffocating me and i really hate it so much. I want to be that girl who is so full of positive energy and is always ready to conquer another day.
I know work has to have their good and bad days, but this place makes me feel so overwhelmed at times and all i can do is cry about it when i get back home. It's like you are in this internal conflict where you love working at the front line but because of what you experience, it makes you hate your job.
I think perhaps all i need is a good break from work to get back all these positive energy.
What happen to you, Adeline?
You know you are stronger than this. 💪
Barely a month yet i think the amount of tears and struggle was enough to overwhelm me.
Don't forget the reason why you're here, you're here to learn what you need to learn and contribute as much as you can. So don't give yourself too much stress alright, just do your best. You still have helpful manager and colleagues to help you. We may not be a perfect team but we can do this. All will be alright, just like bad days, they'll come and go and just believe that better days are coming. :')
Smile even when you don’t want to smile, and see how much it improves your days! Smiling even if you don’t feel happy will make you feel better, and seeing a smile on your face will make others feel better, too!
Remember: No company is perfect. And no one is going to be chipper all of the time, but when you start to detect growing feelings of dissatisfaction you didn’t have before, consider the source, and move away from it so you can start redirecting your energy.You can do this, Adeline.
God will only give you things he knows you can handle. Always know you can do all things through Christ who strengthens them. 加油你可以的，要相信自己！
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