Thoughts at night

Hello, it's been a while since i blogged. :)
Well, it's been a really long week since the end of Eoy till now and finally i have some time to myself.
So yeah, was thinking of something while i was watching my drama.
Suddenly it came to my mind, was it because of my stubborn and strong-headed personality that we couldn't get along eventually? Because two strong-headed persons can never get along tgt well and be attracted to one another, maybe that's why we both have walked down this road till today.

But no matter what, i just know that i want to be a better me.
Now till the future, i want to be a better self so that people will love me more for who i am.
Maybe i'm lacking of certain qualities or not being entirely myself or maybe i'm still changing, i really hope i can slowly reduce my bad habits and be a better girl.
I want to be less stubborn, more helpful and initiative, control my anger management, stop saying vulgarities.
I guess there's many flaws in me and i will do my best to change it.
I can't guarantee or promise i'll be really good in future, but i'll try my very best.
God, you'll help me too right?
And maybe then, when the right person comes, he will love me even more for who i am and never let me go.

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