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"Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you've feeling low
Only hate the roads when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go..."

Yes, this song's been in my mind the entire day.
Love the lyrics especially. Its something that one can relate to and yeah, to love someone is to let the person go. 
Been thinking quite a lot lately especially in the middle of the night when i'm still awake alone, is this all worth it? Everything that i've been doing for our friendship? Am i happy with us being like this?
Well i always thought to myself i'm doing the right thing until last night, when i texted you to ask about your first paper and yeah it hit me. It suddenly came crashing to me that i'm pretty much wasting my time and effort on you, on our friendship. If you want to be part of my life, you'll make an effort to do it. Somehow, it dawned on me that i shall stop doing whatever i'm doing, just let it go.
If we're meant to be in each other's lives, we'll be right? 
No matter how hard i try to pull you in, there always seem to be a distance between us idk why.
And you know what, i shouldn't feel sad at all. Because the person i've liked and loved has always been there but we're just separated by too much time to reach each other. That person exist somewhere inside you and it's just hidden right now. 
And honestly, i wonder why the past times i'm so stupid to have always been disappointed that you couldn't make it for our study dates and stuff, expressing it explicitly to my friends. I mean i should have been happy even if with or without you. Now that i think about it, i really enjoyed ACTK times. ;)
Loved the company of these two fellows (L)
They make me feel at ease and happy and with them, it feels as if i could just live my life as carefree as i want. 

But i just want you to know that no matter what, i'll always be there if you need someone to talk to.
Our promise still exist right? And i'm holding tight to that.
I'll always love you, my friend.
And it seems so surreal but two nights ago, i've had the best dream ever of you coming to me to talk with me and catch up and we're just like hanging out tgt having the time of our life. 
That day will come right? 


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