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TIRED. !
todayy was really quite sucky because i let my emotions take over me. i let that anger, that frustration, that sadness to let it overwhelm me that i couldn't look at things positively. i hated myself. why couldn't i just let it go and just think of another better plan so that even though there is no god damn pit stop there, we'll still have a good place to go and celebrate!
instead, i became so obsessed about my emotions that i became so quiet and all alone, ignoring my friends who were showing concern. :/
After coming home and reading the book "Life without limits". 
i finally understood how that my attitude is like the remote control for the television set. that if he program i'm watching doesn't do anything for me, i can just simply grab e remote and change it. its like how i can adjust my attitude in much e very same way when i didn't get e results i want. when i wanted to go cycling but there wasn't any bike shop in sight. Thankfully, i'm one who couldn't resist emoing for long, because when i think back to myself, i'm still here and do i want to spend the rest of my day overly concerned with my anger and frustration, all the negative emotions building up inside me!
So i really thank God that i managed to change my attitude and control my emotions, luckily the rest of the day wasn't ruined by me. (:


& i feel so bad towards my friends, esp him.
Sorry for making you give way to me always, i guess being my boyfriend is hard at times. But i really love you for caring for me so much. (L) 
(:

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