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DAMN IT! :(((((((((((((((((( I'M HAVING A SERIOUS MOODSWING!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...seriously somehow i need to break-down. go shopping after school. stuff myself with ice-cream or chocolates. maybe even go run 10 rounds around the carpark. arhhh! everything is so going way off. i mean like once i realised it, its too late. i feel so angry with myself i ignored you. i didn't even want to take a look at you. i thought that u're supposed to be my best friend. to stand up when its needed to. i want u to just shout at me!!!!!!!! :( i dun like u keeping all these emotions i can't read to yourself. we're supposed to share out and be happy. but it did't seems so. i just wished time could stop. maybe we aren't meant to be best friend at all. our characters are so different! during class, i just stuff myself with books. that wonderful fantasy. y life can't be that perfect?! anw. when i said bye to u guys, i knew u didn't replied. but i didn't turn behind to look at all. in my heart, i was aching so badly. i just needed some time alone.

full of hurt>.<

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